Show them you love them while you still can...

I was blog hopping last night when I read about a husband's blog who recently lost his wife, he said that he thought he was prepared for it since they expected that it would happen. But it only gets harder for him knowing that his life will never be the same without his wife's presence, sure the burden of having to find means to provide for her medications is gone but it seems that life is never complete without her.

Life after a death of someone we love is hard to accept no matter how hard we prepare ourselves when we see it coming, it's like a nightmare that will keep on haunting us and when it comes, you will never be ready for it. I've lost a lot of loved ones, my papa and I, we didn't have that kind of relationship that someone would envy, but we know deep in our hearts how much we love each other. His sudden death made me regret a lot of things, I kept asking myself then if I was able to show him how much I loved him. There were a lot of things I wished I should have done. He was the reason why I did not pursue my career in the US, he didn't want me to leave because he said it's hard to work there if I'll be alone. He asked me to just help them with the family business and I gave in to his request with the plan that I will just stay for a few years. Three years after, he died of cardiac arrest. Right then and there I knew that staying with them was the right decision, at least I was able to spend those few years with him. When my closest aunt-"bestfriend" passed away, It was hard to accept not because she was very young but because she was the closest to me among my relatives. Her family moved to the US and there she got pregnant with her second child, a few months after I got pregnant with the princess, we used to chat everyday talking about anything, we never ran out of topic to talk about. We enjoyed talking about our pregnancy. But after she gave birth, the online conversations has lessen, I understand how busy she was coz life there isn't the same here. One time I had the chance to chat with her again, she kept saying how much she misses me and that she loves me very much. I wasn't surprised then coz we're used to exchanging i love you's. One night we received a call from her husband that she had her third attack of aneurysm and that she was on a coma, I was hopeful that she's gonna make it again. But that was the last "i love you" I got from her, she passed away the next day and again I was left hoping, wishing that I should have made an extra effort to talk to her, to call her and let her feel how much I love her. I can't imagine how badly I will miss her, until now I can't help but cry every time I think of her. I can cry bucket of tears but it will never bring back the people I loved so dearly.

Sometimes we neglect to show the people we love how much they mean to us, thinking that there will always be next time but I hope I will always be reminded of the two people I love and lost too early. I hope I can always be the kind who will not hesitate to show how much a person means to me for when they're gone, I can never bring them back to make up for the lost times, and I will be left again feeling the regret.